I arrived at my
aunt’s house 30 minutes late. She offered me vodka when I first got in, but I
declined because I was wearing plastic braces and didn’t want to brush my teeth
again. She told me to lighten up, “vodka is disinfecting, you can’t get
cavities drinking vodka.” We were meeting to brainstorm ideas to write a book.
She had lofty ideas about writing a treatise about piano playing, aesthetics,
and philosophy... I had ambitions of using the words fucker and douchebag. She
flashed her phone voice memos showing hundreds of recordings of lectures by HKC
and other piano teacher luminaries like Vardi. Where to start? I told her I
wanted to follow Steven Chu’s process of immersion learning. Instead of reading
a dry textbook, I want to dive deep into the subject and then spread my
tentacles laterally to learn organically about classical music and my uncle. I
asked her to send me the most interesting lecture to start my journey and we
could organize the book around stories and viewpoints of musicians.
At 10 pm my uncle returned
home from a long 13 hour teaching day. He placed a black plastic bag with a
couple bottles of wine on the counter. My aunt encouraged me to start asking
questions while he cooked. Up to this point I had developed stories about him
in talking to his students, his wife, and family members, reading Rilke
letters, listening to his concert and looking at his master classes. Like
peeling an onion only to find another layer within, each narrative provided me
a different perspective of the man. he was hungry and preparing dinner before
me. Opening the refrigerator door, scanning for ingredients, he promptly
proceeded to cut ginger and tofu slices, and chop greens in the sink to sautee.
He talks to musicians all day, so I felt nervous asking stupid obvious questions
about music... he was hungry and tired, how do I barrage him with my douchebag
questions? I just jumped into the deep end of the pool and started my line of
inquiry by asking him if he could give me a sense of the main idea of his
performance of opus 106, since his disciple had such difficulty in explaining
it to me.
He started his
response by quoting Mahler. “What is tradition? When something is misread, it
is interpreted in a new way and something is innovated. if three people
misinterpret something then it becomes a tradition. The problem with pianists
these days is that they blindly follow traditions laid down years ago by 3 guys
sitting in a cafe. Pianists nowadays get masters degrees in music. It’s ironic,
none of these players are 'masters'.” I got the sense he just wanted to blow
off some steam after a long day teaching. My aunt chimed in, “It’s like kids
slavishly filling out coloring books. how is that creative if you're painting
within the outlines? But kids defend their efforts by responding “in the end
you get an amazing image.”
“in germany, i hung
out with so called composers. there are composers... and then there are
‘composers’. i got a little glimpse at what they were doing. i also taught 3
students at university who were weak
intellectually, artistically and aesthetically. It was depressing. these were
people who called themselves composers. First, they were not qualified. the
problem was most of their education was about right and wrong. But music is not
about multiple choice. art is not about multiple choice or right and wrong....
when i play music like opus 106, i create a being. it's like taking a
composer's music and bringing it to life. each performance is like creating a
child. sometimes it's a juvenile delinquent, sometimes it's bright, sometimes
mischievous... each child is unique. instead of thinking right and wrong, when
i play a piece, i go left and i go right. when i go left i try to show the
listener something in the music they might not have seen, and so on.."
relating his musical journey to real life wandering, awareness, and reflection
he continued "just the other day, i was walking down the street and the
sun was setting exactly on axis at the end of the street and i wondered how
long it would take to go down. i walked to the end of the street and observed
it took 8 minutes."
I hadn’t intended to
structure a conversation about opus 106. two weeks ago, I had never heard of
this piece. Now I was talking to a pianist that has played it for my entire
lifespan... 45 years. "what’s the difference between when you first
started playing opus 106 and now?" “When I first played it, it was like a
tree. It had a branch and some leaves on it and that's it. i was very happy. i
got its notes. the first stage of playing was wanting to play everything
'correctly', which is a duty of being a student. i grew up in germany where
musicians are supposed to be the slaves or 'musikants'- just
players."
i was persistent in
my questioning, prospecting for interesting responses. i struck gold. "he
was deaf when he composed opus 106, do you think Beethoven is giving a
perspective in music that's different because of that?" "before i
learned it. i heard this piece live only once by a student in the same class. i
remember it was just so long. it didn't draw my interest. i didn't know what
the heck it was. it just went on and on and on. do you know how it happened i
played this piece? i was turning 16. i've told this story maybe 50 times. PHC
challenged me (HKC's older sister and concert pianist herself) . “karlheinz
stockhausen claimed he learned this piece in 2 weeks.” so i sat down. went to
my room and memorized and learned how to play it in 2 weeks. it was plain and
simple. from my sister's point of view. it was a challenge. from my point of
view i wanted to see if i could do it. i had no other interest. and i did it.
case closed. it was during that time PHC was traveling and playing a lot of
concerts. when she was traveling a lot she would give me a key to her practice
room which was in a garage. i could practice there 24-7 without disturbing
anyone. i would spend late nights playing in that garage. in the slow movement
there's one spot i played and played and played and i felt an out of body
experience that transported me to another world. that was so beautiful unique
and fascinating. i was a little shocked and surprised. i came back to myself.
that's when i gave up the idea of becoming a scientist. i told myself. "i
bet science will never take me there, but music would. that's when i decided i
wanted to become a pianist. so it was this opus 106 piece that made me realize
i wanted to become a pianist. i never told PHC about it. I just thought it was
amazing."
I knew my uncle and
his older sister went to Germany to study music, but till now, I didn’t know
anything of their relationship. so now i asked some basic questions about my
family. “how much older is PHC than you?" "she's 8 years older than
me." "did you go to the same school?" "yes... so anyways i
wanted to find out more about this piece. people were talking about the joan of
arc story. i looked into that. the 1st movement would have been the winning of
the war and victory. and then the slow movement was about how she was jailed in
the tower in a cell. the last movement would've been the execution. so when i
learned about that. i was really fascinated. back then, people around me
weren't that inventive. i had enough material to imagine."
"beethoven
modeled this after joan of arc?" "no. later i found out that
beethoven was going through a very tough time while he was writing opus 106.
his brother died. and he wanted file for custody for his nephew. he was winning
the fight in court. unbeknownst to a lot of people, he was wealthy. he wrote
these pieces and got paid handsomely. he was living well whereas his brother's
wife didn't have a job. so he had the upper hand until the last day of the
trial. the magistrate asked him "well, once you get custody of your nephew,
what school would you send him to?" beethoven had no idea. he never went
to school himself. he wouldn't know where to send anybody. and then the
magistrate suggested most of the nobles' families send their kids to a certain
school. he questioned beethoven whether he hailed from a noble family. because
his name sounded like 'von', people assumed he was noble. but beethoven was
dutch. so 'van' didn't mean noble. the magistrate's question caught beethoven
by surprise. obviously he wasn't ready to answer the question and he was
exposed as not being a noble. he lost the custody battle. but what was worse is
that he lost a lot of friends. up to this point he had paraded around the upper
echelon of society. people thought he was a noble. but now he was a fraud. and
it hurt him that he was found out. he had a very hard time. he had hidden his
identity for such a long time... and in a cruel twist of fate, he went from the
edge of a custody victory to public shame and disaster. going through this
ordeal, he had to come out of hiding and face himself as a common man, not a
noble. this event could have something to do with the writing of opus 106"
"what is there
to prove it?" "Well... beethoven was deaf for his last 10 years. to
communicate, he used a book to write out his words to ‘speak’ to people. within
this book, at the time of opus 106's writing there is one sentence.. "a
house, all so small." just one sentence. but this sentence indicated his
state of mind. he felt he was in such a small place... walled in by himself.
there it is. in this slow movement i played in the garage.... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ydpacGfBUd0
it caught my attention and changed my life. and i identified myself with that
music. living in germany in a very small room. everywhere i went was small. my
sister's practice room was the the back part of the garage. in the front, there
was a parked car. the back little section had the piano. i had nowhere to
go."
my aunt reaffirmed
the town HKC grew up in, stadhagen. was really bleak. "imagine a rough
school and rough kids... and here's this small chinese guy. when he first
arrived in germany, the princial said "wie geht's?"(how goes it?) and
HKC had no idea what it meant. so middle school aged HKC had to spend 3 months
in elementary school to learn German before going to middle school. he only
wore flannel shirts because my grandfather got a deal and bought dozens of them
for the family.
now I was curious
about the details of his time in Germany. In my mind I had imagined a fancy
conservatory where my aunts and uncle went to attend... not some random
suburban wasteland town west of bumfuck Hanover with industrial prefab houses
and pianos crammed into garages. i asked a german i work with if there are any
stereotypes about hanoverians to get a sense of the area. like in america, all
the progressive free thinkers are on the coasts, and all the retarded
inbreeding trump xenophobic zealots live in the south. she said hanover is so
insignificant it doesn't even have a stereotype. people from hamburg in the
north are called fish heads because they're by the sea, people where she hailed
from between munich and the black forest are known to be stingy homesteaders.
"who chose the school?" "PHC. the school was near where she
lived. 4 houses down the road from the school. i lived with an old lady. all
the houses were the same. prefabricated. the old lady was a widow that came
from oslo."
"how did PHC
end up there?" "PHC went to germany because my father knew Germany
was great for music. this was my father's idea. he discovered that my sister
would respond to the vendors on the road. in taiwan, when the vendors sell
something, they carry their goods over their shoulder and sing. they would sing
a song kind of like how an icecream truck plays a song to announce their
arrival. without electricity people would sing a song. one of my father's colleagues
gave PHC a small piano. it had 5 notes. so when vendors passed by and sang a
song, she would play that tune on the piano. my grandfather noticed it, and you
know.. he was very observant. "that's something special" he thought.
so he knocked on people's doors looking for a teacher. he found the right
person. chiang kai shek's personal doctor's wife. she had spent 2 years in the
shanghai conservatory. she came from zhejiang, the same province that my father
came from. he brought my sister over to the wife's house and she immediately
found out she had perfect pitch. "you know how rare that is?" she
said to my grandfather, "you must have her learn the piano." that's
how PHC started playing the piano. my frather was so curious. when any foreign
performers came to play in taiwan, he would take her there and make her play
there in front of them. the performers were completely astounded. "this
child is a genius" they would exclaim.
some of these people were reknowned so my father believed them. HL, who
was a surgeon was in the midst of moving to germany. my father made a recording
of PHC and had HL take it to germany. HL happened to find a professor of a piano department in the town
where he was working and said "this kid is 8 years old". the chair
said, "she's a genius and we must have her."
"did your
father take her to germany?" "no, HL did." i responded with a
funny story. "i saw HL in germany with my cousins. we were teenagers. he
had all these probes in his doctor's office. we kind of just stuck these suction
cup probes all over our bodies and goofed off playing sick patients and 'taking
measurements' in his office. i didn't know who HL was. Up to this point i had
known HL as the nephew of my grandfather who hopped on a boat to go to taiwan
with my grandfather's family... now in writing i was learning he became a
surgeon, saved my grandmother's life during HKC’s birth, and played a pivotal
role in guiding his younger cousins to germany for music. At the time of my
visit he was an old doctor with dyed black hair with a bunch of funny equipment
that left circular suction cup marks on your body.
getting back on
topic, i asked HKC "how has your interpretation of opus 106 changed over
time." "it grows with me. when i look back in hindsight. i recognize
my path of growth. in my musical development at first i was observant. then i
was accurate. i was a super good student. then i became fanatically accurate -
a specialist at a musicologist level. these are all just stages. i'm still
going through stages. i already look back 1 week after i played the concert at
Yale. today i spent 2 hours on it. i realized what level i was last week. now
i'm going beyond that. everytime i touch those pieces i'm at another level. i
don't go back. this piece reflects my stages and growth. some people don't
stick with a piece for a long time. By playing it, i get to see how i grow.
each time i play it. i don't care for a vast repertoire. that's unimportant. i
always go back to my pieces. i get to see my stages, what i've passed thorugh, abandoned,
what i saw so valuable that is no longer valuable to me. i have new things
always. a year ago i played the schubert cycle... his last three sonatas. it
was very hard. those pieces taught me so much. everyday i couldn't wait to go
to practice. every day was a lesson. i kept growing and growing. after i
stopped playing schubert i thought i became a very different pianist. i became
curious i wondered how my beethoven would be affected now that i'm a different
pianist. playing beethoven is a completely new game after the lessons i got
from schubert. i renew myself everyday. there's no stagnation. so now when i do
beethoven i'm always finding new ideas... nurturing a child. these pieces are
children. i believe each one is a complete being. as each one starts to grow
and mature into its own. then you can imagine they will have a multiplicity of
aspects about them. just like a human being, if you look at it this way, it
looks different than if you look at it from a different angle. your view
depends on the angle you look at it. it's completely alive. i have created
something when i play it. and i can change it. i'm completely flexible. that's
the fun part. you've created something. under my hand i can take what a
composer's written and bring them to life. the creativity lies right in
there."
"how do you
bring life to them?" "that takes dedication. in my profession. most
of my colleagues are very proud of their knowledge. they're very well read.
they have opinions. but if you listen to them play, there's no life. i had a
teacher who told me "when you perform, the audience doesn't have a
checklist in front of them. the audience doesn't know if you're doing the right
thing. they're just sitting there. you have to really know what's in the music.
if you make a mistake it doesn't matter. just as long as the expression is
right. you have to bring the music to life.... famous piano teacher adele
marcus from juilliard said "you have to throw your audience a bone. like
they're dogs." so what are you going to present? you're going to present
an incredible being. you show all the many children of beethoven. no two are
alike. they're all individual. as a pianist, you're dedicated to making these
creatures."
at this point, my
aunt, who was burrowing her face in flowers joked the tulips on the dining
table felt like lips. she was just relishing the feeling. "good, i'm
replaced" my uncle joked. their dining room table top was white nestled
against a book shelf in an alcove behind a grand piano overlooking a terrace
that opened up to the southern manhattan skyline. the table was so small it had
space enough for just 2 table settings. i could imagine their intimate nightly
conversations held close in this space with the backdrop of books and flowers.
HKC continued his
train of thought. "i'm not a servant. i'm a creator for that particular
life and the blueprint was given to me by the composer. different people can
create different beings. basically a composer specifies 2 eyes, a nose, a
mouth, and ears. it's supposed to be human so it won't turn out to be a dog.
each day i try to go through as many of the pieces as i can. each time i create
a differnet being. it's never one being. the beings are not set in stone. the
beings are eternally morphing."
"why did you
play so many sonatas in the yale concert?" "i attempted to lock the
audience in. they can't leave. if i played in an ordinary way, then it would
have been really boring. people would go to the bathroom. but i'm playing my
own specific way where possibilities exist. my approach is unorthodox. i'm
locking them the audience in. with enough of a dosage i can show the audience
the possibility of several children of the composer. it takes some time to
understand. if you're not concentrating, you're just window browsing. i wanted to
show the audience beethoven... not the dogmatic... not the schoolmaster but the
revolutionary. beethoven was 120 years ahead of his time. people of his time
couldn't understand all the dissonances. they thought they were mistakes, but
actually they were completely intentional."
at this point, i
noted the similarities between architecture and music. I don't see any
boundaries between any of the art forms. I think they all inter-relate
completely. "in an architecture sense if you make a building with one function,
they don't come alive. if the materials are not handled well, they will not be
rendered alive. have you been to fort worth?" "yes" "you
know lou kahn's kimbell museum? it's so alive. the way he rendered his
concrete, the way he integrated landscaped courtyards and views to the lawn,
the way light comes in... he breathes life into the building. across the
street, tadao ando's fort worth modern is technically very correct. it's made
with flawless concrete, but it exudes no life... it's dead. as an architect,
you give a set of instructions for a building... but the care you give to the
design, the way you let light in will help make it come alive. if you give it
enough foresight in design, you can do many things.... my favorite architecture is central park. made
in 1860's it was planned with enough foresight to anticipate the advent of
baseball and car. the crossing roads, rolling landscape, loops, and pathways
follow a strong logic. it can host many activities that are so alive. The grades in the park are very gentle.
Always curvilinear, you feel them slip into the park. They never seem to end,
curves always round hills or mounds so you never know where they lead. A light
green patch of sunlit grass draws you in, before you know it, there’s a meadow
overlooking skyscrapers, or a playground, or a collection of boulders. The
effect of this large human intervention is to create such a natural fluid
environment that frees people for activity, contemplation, discovery and
delight. it makes one think why unsuccessful parks are so different and so
dead. sometimes you can design a building perfectly on a grid. but when
constructed, it's dead."
here HKC mused about
life and falafels. "the first few years i was at juliard. i would go to
halal stands to get my falafels. there are 3 falafel guys around juilliard.
65th street, 66th street, and a spot across from ABC studios. i checked them
all out. each taste is slightly different. all 3 are owned by egyptians. the
one on 65th has this guy who is more curious and always looking around."
here he started miming a big guy looking around his falafel truck. "when
your aunt comes to him he says 'i like your husband, he always gets a
falafel!" he's very active. when i ask him to please cook a falafel twice
as long and tell him i'll be back, he says 'sure boss' and i come back in 10
minutes it's extra cooked ready for me. this guy is very loose. a great
character. the stand across from ABC studios has the best business ratings on
yelp. there's always a long line for their food. they're fast and productive.
you always get the same falafel. they offer consistently high quality falafels.
they never run out of falafel. whereas the first guy runs out quite often. the
first guy will apologize for running out. the second stand operates like a
machine. the third stand is one street over. it's run by a lonely guy. every
now and then, i go there to support him.
he gives me the largest falafel ball. and they're good and nutritous but not
the best tasting. every time i see him think i'm going to help him out give him
a little business. this is how it is. they're lively. it's so different. i go
to central park on the weekend. nature attracts me. in spring time. i have to
be there. in the spring i like to see new leaves. multitudes of colors. i
remember taking my father to the forest with a magnifying glass. he could not
stop laughing after seeing buds on the branches magnified. we go to rambles
where there are only a few people. the birds have their gatherings. we like to
catch them and see what they're doing. it's incredible. i discover things
everytime i go to the park. just the other day, i saw some bark on the road.
where did it come from? that kind of bark did not come from any of these nearby
trees. i wonder how it ended up in the road. it's fascinating. there are always
hidden gems to discover."
the conversation now
veered back towards architecture. "what's the most interesting
architecture you see now" my aunt asked. "the most exciting thing for
me is landcape. urban space is becoming more 3 dimensional. the highline is
raised so it's exciting for people to see the city in different ways. plazas
were typically flat... now they're becoming 3 dimensional. when you get to the
vessel, the stairs bring you up to platforms, and you see the city through the
oculi, and see people in action. it's a great 3 dimensional lattice of an urban
space. just like the idea of central park propogated around the world. the idea
of highline is going around world now: reusing infrastructure to rebuild
cities."
my uncle asked,
"do you think geometric ratios in space affect people?" i don't know
why i brought up kahn so much, but he designed buildings at yale where my uncle
teaches, and a museum where the van cliburn competition is held, fort worth.
out of all the architects i thought about, i believed kahn's modern
interpretation and mastery of ancient notions of proportions, material, and
light was akin to my uncle's artistic sensibilities... and his dedication to
his art and teaching and deferred success in life mirrored kahn's professional
trajectory. "yes. louis kahn was a master of this. you can see the
proportions in kimball museum were derived from his studies of ancient
proportion in rome. the yale art gallery looks like simple plan. but every wall
in relationship is figured out precisely. they all relate to the golden
rectangle and human proportions. kahn came out of the great depression and
could not find much work. he was a teacher at yale when he got his first big
commission at 52 years old. after he won the rome prize, he met anne tyng who
inspired him to really look into geometry. his ideas started crystallizing.
within the last 21 years of his life he designed so many gems... the salk
laboratory, exeter library, kimball museum, british art gallery etc... at yale
you have the yale art gallery, his first building across from one of his last
buildings, the british art gallery. at the british art gallery, the concrete
looks massive but it is hollow. through the hollow areas, the air and water
course through the building weaving together a lot of flows in a very
sophisticated. it is very simple, yet very well thought out. when i was in
school, his son screened his movie My Architect in the British art gallery
theater. Kahn evidently had 3 wives at
the same time. Kahn didn't know how to drive so he would take taxis to women's
houses..." keeping on this topic about messy life, i told a funny story
about work, "went i went to a job site yesterday, and we drove past floyd
bennet air field. my boss told me charles lindberg flew out of there. there was
a documentary about him where his children spoke of what it was like growing up
a lindberg. one child recounted lindberg would always fly away for a couple
months at a time. he had 6 kids with his wife and another 6 kids among 3 other
mistresses (2 of which were sisters). apparently he used his piloting skills to
go from family to family..." at this point my uncle offered one of a few
glasses of montepulciano red wine. it went very smoothly with the chocolate covered
ginger balls. it was well worth taking off my braces and an extra tooth
brushing.
to get back to the
topic of music i made one last quip, i was amazingly persistent with my
questions. my aunt laughed each time i asked another. "so beethoven said
it would take 50 years to understand opus 106... but the life expectancy back
in his time was only 30 years... so 50 years was beyond a typical life span. do
you think we have to convert 50 years to modern lifespan? do you think it will
take 100 years nowadays to understand opus 106?" wine was now producing
silly questions and theories and serious responses. "beethoven died at 57.
it was a strange but amazing statement he made saying it would take 50 years to
understand his opus 106. people say "oh that's just metaphoric
statement". but i think there was some truth in it. i hope in 5 years i'll
have a greater understanding of the
piece. it's hard to play opus 106 fifty years. first you have to start playing
it young, because if you start to late, when you get old, it's hard to summon
the stamina to play it. secondly, most people don't keep playing it. in the
world now there are probably 30-50 pianists now who will play it for 50 years.
there were a few things that beethoven said that give us clues about his
musical insights. his first clue was about tempo. the metronome was invented by
Maelzel shortly before beethoven started marking tempos on his scores. Maelzel
turned out to be the guy who also invented the hearing horn. beethoven was very
curious with the metronome and marked the time for each movement opus 106. it
is the only sonata he tried to specify the tempo.. he sent his manuscript with
tempo markings to publisher in london. the publisher didn't get it. he wrote a
letter back to beethoven to ask if could send another copy. by the time the
second set arrived, the first set arrived. confusingly, the tempo markings were
completely different. the publisher asked "which one should we use?"
beethoven responded, "this is totally useless. if somebody doesn't know
how the music goes, this pure metronome number will not help." that was a
huge clue. it's very important to know the tempo. first thing he asked after
someone saw a performance of his music was not "did they
playwell?"... rather it was "what tempo did they play?" if the
tempo was correct, then he would ask if the musicians played the music well. at
different tempos the music has a completely different expression. for the 9th
symphony scherzo, when beethoven attended a rehearsal even when he couldn't
hear a thing. he told the conductor it was the wrong tempo." the conductor
told beethoven, "that's your tempo on the sheet music, 126." "no
no no...." beethoven replied as he
crossed out the 126 on the score and revised the tempo to 80 beats per minute.
the tempo was 30% off! that was a huge problem. after that confusion, beethoven
said "if the person doesn't know how the music goes, then forget it."
fortunately all his symphonies got metronome markings. those tempo markings was
a huge insight into beethoven. he was the first modern pianist. he didn't play blandly like other pianists. his music
is full of emotion and strength." at this point, our talk diverged further
into life. my uncle would retire to sleep within an hour, i kept speaking with
my aunt till 2 AM. she told me they were going to film a session about the
ideas of opus 106 at their piano in a week. i rode my scooter into the cold
dark night thinking of all the stories that had transpired and the exciting
prospect of delving further into opus 106.
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